Chocolates Make Me Happy!

Saturday, March 24, 2007

C'mon, Take a Break... Do some other work!

ha... so true... When you have such a heavy workload... what happens is that when you're sick of doing one work... u take a break by doing another work...

am i being too demanding on myself? that's why jie said... i don't know...

i only know i'm gonna break down soon... mentally and physically...

i can't help it... i'm suffering from too many setbacks this semester... i can proudly say there's nothing i'm proud off that i've done...

Sit for tests - below average results...
Go for internship interviews - get rejected...
Spend hours writing report - average grades...
Apply for bio valley - get shanghai...
Project Superslim - failed utterly...

... i just totally despise myself now... there hasn't been a single motivation... if this continues any longer... i just don't know if i can take it anymore...

everytime i put an end to feeling upset... sth upsetting will happen again... that's how i get thrown back into the whole vicious cycle... again and again and again...

Monday, March 19, 2007

D for Deadlines, Doomsday and Depression

yes... I'm living in a 3D world... Someone... pls stop me from jumping...

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Rock Bottom

BOOHOOOHOOOHOOO...

i hate myself now... because i'm no longer the cheery me... no longer the optimistic and happy me.... what happened... oh.. yeah... many things happened...

firstly... i flunked my two only tests i've done this semester... yes i passed... but trust me... i JUST passed... and am way below average... on top of that... yday i received news of 2 internship coy rejections.... *ping ping piang - heart break*... why must they both reject me on the same day??? what makes it worse is that these two are the top two internships I would like to have... now i'm internship less...

hopeless...

haiz... plus i've got so many deadlines due... wondering why I'm posting a blog entry at 7+am in the morning... yeah, u've got it right, i haven't slept a wink since erm... 24hrs ago... and before that full 24hrs, i only slept about less than 5 hours... I'm a living zombie now... sheng bu ru si... haiz... although i just managed to submit a crap draft case analysis in time for my prof's critique, it's not like i can take a breather or what... i've got tons of projectwork and case analyses (another one due this fri morning) to do... not to mention IA project... it's totally... undone... 3 wks... and nothing is done... perfect...

dear blog... this semester i've been at my peak level of stress... and the rock bottom level of depression and fatigue...

how can i cheer myself up? what can i do to make myself happy??? i've got no time for these... yes, i need to catch a wink now... before lessons start in 4 hrs time (meaning slp only 3.5hrs... hai)....

BOOOHOOOHOOOHOOO

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Lines and Meat... what's the connection?

the connection between lines and meat is that they are both "dead"... and so am i... deadmeat because i can't meet my deadlines...

then again... if that's the case, what am i doing online at this time blogging abt it? hmm... many reasons... been kinda upset these couple of days... sth that i treasured the most in life... is now on the verge of shattering... the thought of it is really saddening... i don't wish to talk abt it... but i can't ignore it either... haiz... i seriously hope it'll turn for the better...

well... it does seem like i'm an unfaithful blogger... my last entry was on 22nd Feb and it's already 10 March... ha... needless to say... i've been bz to the max... submitting cases... doing presentations... writing reports... designing slides... working events... gg for internship interviews...

talking abt the last pt... geez, i really went for so many interviews... the no. of interviews i went for... is more than what jie has undergone in her entire life! well, the good thing is, none of the companies has rejected me yet... then again, by keeping silent, does that mean reject? lol... oh, and i got through to the second round for marriott... geez, the 2nd interview was a written test format... and that's how i became appalled by my own level of chinese... reading and speaking ain't a problem... i totally didn't know i absolutely forgot how to write many chinese characters!!! this is really bad... to think i use to ace my chinese exams... haiz... maybe that's why i've got pretty slim chance at marriott too... then the next gd news is P&G interviews... passed the online personality test... passed the problem solving test... passed the scenario description... and passed the first face-to-face interview with one of the brand managers.... i had the 2nd face-to-face interview today at P&G... he's also a brand manager... it's really quite cool to learn more abt the co. fr them... but well, didn't thought i performed that well today... at least i tot i had better dynamics with the interviewer 2 days ago... oh well... just hopefully i can make it through... i think it'll really be beneficial to intern there... lotsa learning opportunities... cool..

oh not to mention, i've got two cases to submit next wk and a presentation too... did i mention that i've been averaging 3 to 4 hrs of slp per day? i used to do that last time... slp at 5 and wake up at 8am... but last time, i wud still take a nap in the afternoon... this time rnd... i dun quite enjoy such luxury... this semester is just too demanding already...

SAVE ME... i dowanna be deadmeat... but i wan to meet deadlines! lol... i'm insane now... save me... depression + lack of slp + heavy workload = *faint*... yes i'm abt to faint anytime soon... where's my prince charming to catch my fall??

ohhhhhh... btw... wahahaha... i must admit that having eye candies in your life makes it a tad more interesting than without... haha... just a little more colours in my mundane black & white life... haaaaaa... right... shall go read a case before slping... nitez blog... not sure when i'll c u again!


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