Chocolates Make Me Happy!

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Go away, Tomorrow!!!

boo... pre-birthday syndrome...

i dowan my birthday to come... go away go away...

i dowanna be one year older...

i wanna stay young...


Anyway, tks xiaoli for that superbly sweet and funny postcard... you really can't imagine how i almost burst out laughing as I was reading it on my way back to hall... and yes, so sorry for not opening the burleigh letterbox when i left (after debating in my head for so long, i figured no one would drop me a mail)... and rawr, 1 year older so what? i still wanna act cute leh, ke yi ma ke yi ma ke yi ma???? HAHAHA... and whey, the same fall-sick strategy used in UK may not apply in Singapore leh... people here dun care i sick or die de... haiz... looks like i can only silently bio my eye candies... altho not as shuai/cute as 'londan'... but no choice la... make do make do.... we're afterall back in singapore le... lol...

The Power of Eye Candies

Okay... actually... they ain't got any powers... just makes me happy whenever i see my eye candies around... LOL... short and simple post... dowanna rattle on abt my high stress level... no point... i'll still be stressed at the end of the day... so just think of happy stuffs like meeting my eye candies everyday... Well then, are eye candies good substitues for a bf???? We'll see about that... LOL...

i'm just too tired to write anymore... bk to the bad ole habit of slping late.. gosh 4am le... yawnz...

Friday, January 26, 2007

The Family Touch of Friends

First of all... I must really say i'm very very very blessed with good friends...

To begin with, KR C Blk has a reputation for being a Family Block... And it's true!!! Well, was msn-ing with peng last night and he kinda knew i was feeling a little down because of the 'no goals no motivation' crap... and really, to my huge surprise... peng peng and alvin came to give me a surprise visit at the corner of KR (where my room is apparently, btw i'm no longer in c blk but have been posted to E blk).... Was so touched... They just came in... talked crap... joked around... but it was really a nice feeling... Although still within hall premises, but I'l literally at the furthest corner from where they're staying... and it was already 1+ am in the night... Thanks a lot, both of ya... Really made me feel blessed last night...

Well, besides these two chaps... I've got another two friends who are also worthy pals!!! Went for dinner at fs with my two lao das, vince and zh... haha... was ranting away abt everything... LOL... and they're really good source of entertainment... it's fun hanging out with them... plus, they are my finance/IA tutor!!! haha... two super smart chaps... but yet very helpful and willing to explain almost everything to me(apparently it's because i don't know anything)... haha... the two FHNIs... LOL...

And today leh, I met up with able abel for lunch! yipee... haven't seen him in ages... woah, he looks more well-built now loh (although he claims that it's what he wore that gave false impression)... hahaha... but it was a joy to chat up with him over lunch... especially when we both conquered europe before (separately, but pretty much visited the same few places)... so there were loads to talk about... and he's so funny too... haha...

Yeah... that's the reason why i feel really really really blessed... i have loadsa great friends... just too many to list... I mean... I'm probably the most fortunate girl in the world le... I've got a great family that loves me, great friends that are concerned abt me... Everything is just sooooo perfect... maybe that's why it has to balance out... with the superb heavy workload, the extreme stress i'm facing, the flabs everywhere, the pimples popping up, the rain-on-me everyday, the goaless life, etc... haha...

alright... shall count my blessing again another day... back to my downside of life... HAHA... READINGS... omg... i'm so ALLERGIC TO HARVARD BUSINESS REVIEWS NOW!!! have to read so many cases every week... every module is giving me different HBRs to read and analyse!! *faintz*...

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

No Wants, No Goals, No Motivation, No Life...

No No No... NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

Oh me oh my... at the trough of my life again... I'm in a state of pessimism... Oh then again, it's not really pessimism. It's just stagnation perhaps. Just seem lost in life. No measurable goals... no particular wants... and hence, no motivation to achieve...

Yah... and I'm shattered... wait, I mean... my Cupid Crystal Ball is shattered...

Accidentally knocked it over yday... It fell from my subwoofer onto my desk... Shattered... and the water/glitter just spilled all over my wires near my laptop... See, even cupid gave up on me... Looks like it's gonna be a lonely vday again this year... but before that, my bday's up next week... Boo... I dislike all birthdays after my 21st... Just another year... another ageing year... omg... I don't wanna grow old... I don't wanna be reminded of my birthday... Neither do I want ppl to ask me what i'm gonna do 2 weeks after my bday... darnz...

This reminds me... I was on the shuttle bus back to hall today... When this thought suddenly struck me "I think I can see time moving past me"... LOL... don't know why I outta the blue thought of sucha thing... Perhaps 'cos I've got no motivation now and am just letting time tick by... And the moving scenery (relative to the bus) just seem like 'time'... sliding past me as i trudge on...

ahhh... I just remembered something too... I forgot to state my New Year Resolutions for this year... Then again, it's nothing new... Been having the same resolutions every year...

I WANNA BE LESS MEAN THIS YEAR!!

hmm... I wonder if the effects are building up over the years... If i actually do achieve this resolution... to be less mean this year... and lesser mean the next year and so on... wouldn't I be an angel before i know it? hahaha... esp when I had this same resolution since... at least 5 years ago!!! Geez, now I realise the rate at which I'm fulfilling my resolution... slower than the snail crawling backwards... Yes, I'm still a meanie... Be mean to me and I'll bite you back 10 times more (last time was prolly 100 times... now reduced)!! RAWRR... *bite bite*...

and one more resolution to add on... I wanna have more SELF-DISCIPLINE...

that can translate to many things... like doing my tutorials on time... hitting the gym routinely... Stop junking on all the fattening food... etc etc...

And wishes for the new year???

well, pretty much the same as every year... Good health to all my family and friends... Happiness for all my loved ones... On a more personal basis.... well... nothing much... like i said, I have no wants as of now...

I guess partly it's cos I'm leading a comfortable life now... Perhaps I should be thrown deep into some bottomless hole... Then it'll be easier to find some motivation and goals in midst of desperation...

anyway, very many tks to my 2 lao da's... vince n zh... for teaching me these few days... guiding me up my very steep learning curve (esp when I had zero knowledge)... for sharing with me your experiences...

and to the january babies:

Bainie - Love you to the teeny meeny bits!!! May you be blessed with all the happiness in the world!!! You deserve the best!!! and I'm keeping a close eye on wil to see if he bullied you (actually he did say some meanie stuffs... but kidding la hor!) haha

Lingxinsan - Another year older... Doesn't matter right, esp when you're so old already.. haha... wish u all the best... hope to see majestic buildings designed by you next time!!

zijun - paiseh didn't wish u happy bday 'cos I was somewhere in Europe still... but really happy to see u at bain's party last wkend... but rawr, u made me sad la... how come u so slim... I'm like twice your size now... boo...

ky - yayy... I didn't forget your bday... tho we never really talk much liao... rest assure, I'll never forget you de (and ya bday)... haha... hope life's been great for you... we really should meet up soon...

peng - ok... one more day to your bday... but yeah... happy birthday peng peng!!! a pity u miss out on what a wonderful experience SEP might bring... but it's good too 'cos then i can see u arn in sch... ha... n tks for msn-ing me when i was away fr singapore... really made me glad to know i'm not forgotten... lol...

perry - yeah, also nv forget your bday cos i know it's 2 days before mine. I still rmb jacky's bday, your bday, feng lao shi's bday and my bday are 4 consecutive days... haha... hope you're having great fun in ntu...

............. WOW... Didn't realise i have many january baby friends... Oh well, happy bday to all of ya!!!

Just realised this is a long blog entry... And I'm still not done with updating my manchester blog... haha... procrastinating man... alright.. slping soon.. byebye

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Slapped Back to Reality... It HURTS!

*OUCH*...

Yes, i'm slapped back to reality after my wonderful 4 months of holidaying in Europe. It has been a good experience... not academically, but more of life skills and it was a superb eye-opener for me.

But i'm so so so so so struggling with my work now. 6 modules (overload again)... 2 level 2000, 3 level 3000 and 1 level 4000... OMG... and 5 of them are non-examinable... can u imagine the amount of workload i have every week? I even brought my Investment Analysis textbook home to read over the weekend. GEEZ...

I NEED HELP... i have NO clue whatsoever the book is talking about... Who wanna volunteer to be my IA tutor? Then again, not volunteer... I'll pay a tuition fee in terms of... lunch and/or dinner... I'm in desperate need for help... the lecturer is obviously trying to point her finger at me and say "YOU ARE DUMB... DROP THE MODULE"... But yes, after much discussion with family, friends and career counsellor, I've decided to keep the module... and struggle with it... afterall, my results ain't good to begin with... but ain't terrible enough to easily drop to the next class of honours... oh well...

GAMBATTE HONGYI... and GOOD LUCK TO MYSELF... WELCOME BACK TO REALITY...


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