Chocolates Make Me Happy!

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

had driving again today... haha mr lim, yah, like what songhua said, is really quite naggy... but alright ba, i can take it man... he's actually v nice oso, can talk kok with me... and i particularly like to niao him with the word "chee-low-lee" (meaning slowly)... lol... ohh hee, and bain helped me buy fbt shorts (finally i have new ones!) and a vest... not too ex.. hiakz.. direct fr warehouse mah... yeah, thanx babe!!! ok, currently i have programmes every day for this week... not bad ha... i shall enjoy it marnz...

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Monday, June 28, 2004

i finally.. yes yes i mean... FINALLY watched Shrek 2... with james... hahaha and my oh my, i'm not gonna watch any comedies in cinema with him ever again.. i forgot my first lesson when i watched "my girl" with him... gosh gosh gosh.. his horrendously loud laughter... really abit paiseh to sit beside him y'know... yah but the show was really quite funny la... it was such an impromptu movie outing oso... in the evening went to chinatown to meet bain... hahaha kewl man.. we went on a makan trail... from chinatown eat and eat (at different places) until we reached lau pa sat... hahaha... had carrot cake, prata, indian rojak, curry chicken, cheng teng... *BURPZ* i'm still damn full as of now... and sports camp approaching, geeeeeez!!! but i can't do abs now cos i'm too full for it le... bleahz.. i'm just plain lazy ain't I? hahaha... not bad a day la... and sch has started for the rest of the peeps... LOL...

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Saturday, June 26, 2004

came back from the bizad camp yday... well.. i should say, i had fun! really great knowing many ppl... made many friends... played many games... learnt many cheers... my og was great, though din win any og prizes or whatsoever, but i still think we did a great job during the camp... special thanks to alina, emelia and qiuting for not leaving me out though the 3 knew each other years ago already... and to steve, jeanette, waiying, ivan, weiyang... they were great seniors too who facilitated us during the camp and they were a fun bunch of people... and to many many others whom i've met during the camp... christine, cheryl, sheryl, ka weng, chuanhui, weihao, etc etc... a beeeeg thankew!!! =) i esp like the sentosa day, all the games we played etc.. and i was super sia swayed on 2 occasions... the sp night at europa when i was made to pick up my sp and the last day when i was supposed to pick up irza and pole dance arn him!! oh, den after break camp, i took 151 home.. was like 1+hrs loh... den upon reaching home, nv do much den dinner time le... at night i still went embargo with ns and his fren... i can't believe my stamina... the night before i din slp cos of the camp programmes... woke up this morning and went town soon after... reg for sports camp le... and i bought a mng dress... kewl, $26 only!! reached home at 8+pm... and now, i tink my stamina running super dry... i need to slp le!!!!!!!

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Sunday, June 20, 2004

i'm gonna invent... Indian-Anti-Stench-Shower foam/Shampoo... hey kewl right... ok, of cos i won't name it that way... give it some nicer name, but i'll launch it in india, hope more ppl will buy... hmm, must be able to counter the curry smell and thick jasmine flower smell on them... well, in a way, yah, it's insulting to an extent but my real intention ain't that... REALLY! i was just thinking, a lot of people are avoiding investments in india (though it has high potential) because indians really do have a queer smell... hmm, has to be sth to do with what they eat... i mean, i'm sure the middle class and up do bathe often right... haha... er, ok... that was my idea la...

yah back to this morning, i went jogging at 10am.. hahaha so farnie, cos i only woke up at 9+++ den by the time i'm in the park already 10am... and nobody was jogging le... i tink all went home liao! lol... but as usual, my stamina still like shit... though i really enjoyed the sprinting la... hee...

oh yah... HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

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Friday, June 18, 2004

i'm a sick cat.... i used like 5 packets of tissue paper while i was in town with bain today. *sneeze* hmm... bought a pair of doggy ear studs (v kawaii neh!!), a colourful hair tie and a pair of denim shorts today. was supposed to buy pa's present but really couldn't think of anything good to buy so er yah, hahahahaha... *grinz*...

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Wednesday, June 16, 2004

i'm still half recuperated... had a bad sorethroat today... the long bus journey on 151 added to my giddiness... great thing i survived the svap session. the 3 boys didn't give me much of a trouble la, and andee was around to help out me and kel. great! they invited a trainer to give a speech and guidance, not too bad la, he wasn't all that of a lullaby speaker. i left at 5pm to join pa and jie in town for haach. bought 2 SBs after that... hahahaha... and the cashier tested my patience... brrrr.... i seriously have a problem with patience... gosh, i need to meditate more and calm my nerves... GRR.. ARGHZ... STOP TESTING MY PATIENCE... hahaha.. *phew phew* *xi qi* *hu qi*... i'm very calm... caaaalllllllmmmmmmmmm.... *phew*

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Tuesday, June 15, 2004

just dl-ed and watched "day after tomorrow"... grr... sets me thinking again... day after tmr, where will i be? or maybe, what will i do? erm, well... i'll hug my family and say i love them lots and lots... den run over my friends' house to do the same too... cool... before that, i should really train up my stamina eh.. and dun get caught in the freezing storm outside... actually, there's really alotta ppl i wanna visit before the day after tomorrow, i've got a whole list in my mind already, but if i really continue, i can run the whole island of singapore... geez... wun i have to be the best marathon runner then?? *oohz* oh well, great show that sets me thinking! though the effects and erm storyline is nothing impressive, but the moral behind it, yah man, sets me thinking alot...

Sn0wDoVe flew by @ 10:21 PM

passion, can overcome all fears, eh?

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Monday, June 14, 2004

i'm sick... running a fever... headache.. *bleah* *bleah*... flu... *sneeze sneeze*... svap on sat was tiring. my group had 3 boys who kinda gave me and kel some problems. but still ok la, they're not the worst i've seen *after teaching in yys*... haha... ok, after svap, we went to meet up with the rest of the class... it was great seeing all of them. a total of 15 ppl went, how cool! sunday was alright... din go anywhere... erm.. today had driving in the morning (first time i saw sunlight while driving) and den went down to nus for medi check up. made 2 new friends there (although only got the hp no. of one of them)... but they both seem like they're going for the bizad camp, great, i'll hope to make more new friends there... ok what else... i just need some rest... i'm sick i'm sick!

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Tuesday, June 08, 2004

Mada Mada Dane!!!! hahahahaha damn, i watched too many episodes of Prince of Tennis at a go le... oh did i mention i went for my first facial experience today. wah, my DI YI CI... given to haach... haha.. erm... well, it was quite cool la... literally cooling on the face, plus the massage (which i beared the tickling feeling)... and my face really felt smoother RIGHT AFTER it... hahaha but gosh when i looked into the mirror after i left, my forehead dotted with red spots... eeeekz, looked worse than before... bleah... i tink it's one of the facial aftermaths... yikez... but nonetheless, my di yi ci, alright alright ba... hehehehe

Sn0wDoVe flew by @ 10:04 PM

doesn't it feels just great? to wake up at 9+am in the morning, and lie in bed till 10+ wondering what to do for the day and yet so lazy to get outta bed? ahhh, i like this... bleah, but i'm feeling sooooooooooooo lazy... was supposed to go jogging this morning... but by the time i'm truly outta my bed, the sun is blaring hot on the pavements le... yah, so my exercising plan: FAILED... i seriously seriously need a bicycle... all i can say is if i had a bike, i would have gone cycling even under the hot blaring sun... it's just different, cycling and jogging... hahahaha y'know i never really enjoyed the latter...

yupz, rise and shine.. today i've got driving... vroom vroom... wonder how it'll be... i'm really taking my driving lessons real slowly cos my test is in october anyway! now now, wat to do, should i go for driving and go gai gai alone before i go for the meeting? or go home den go out for the meeting again? *dilemma*

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Monday, June 07, 2004

hehe.. watched 10 episodes of prince of tennis today... geez... i wanna watch more but jie stopped us... lol... and i feel like playing tennis too!!! but before that, i think i ought to go ice skating first... supposed to be doing it after i watched Pride... but haven't gotten down to do so... wonder when i'll actually go... maybe i can try going alone.. hahaha den won't so sia sway... cos honestly, i'm so tempted to rent the ice hockey skates instead... sharper blades i think can work better when i try to do some stuffs on ice.. LOL.. but to think of it, that was years ago le... sekali i can't even move 10m without slipping... grrrr, i wanna go on ice now!!!! so warm everywhere, anywhere... i need ICE... cooooooool... bleah, i'm talking nonsense again...blabbering like nobody's business... erm, ok, did i mention that i tot i had a svap meeting today but i got it wrong cos it said 8th june which is tml but i kept thinking 8th was today... uh, yah... so, bleah.. tml got meeting... got driving in the afternoon too... diez, how to kill time from 4.30-7pm?? (time between end of driving and start of meeting)... lalala.. GSS again? hahahahaha

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yay... happy... erm... yah... went to watch harry potter 3 today... oh well.. the seats were so horrid at lido 4 that me yk n jan were having backaches after the show! the show was alright la.. not too bad... everything abt the outing today wasn't too bad... finally passed normy his present.. haha... long time no see all of them and even met bro wein there!!! yay yay yay! ok now is racist time... yah, the only part of the day i ain't happy abt was going back home! i was on nel... listening to mp3 and closing my eyes as i stood leaning against the area in between both carriages.. den suddenly... *sniff sniff* wah piang... rotten curry smell mixed with rotten jasmine flowers... mixed with many rotten things... suddenly filled the air.. gosh, i almost suffocated when i tried to hold my breath! heng heng when the train moved... the wind came from the opp direction and blew in such a way that the smell was blown away fr me... but whenever the train stopped, the smell immediately came back... haiz... but i survived the train ride... please applaude for my great tolerance... hahahaha

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Sunday, June 06, 2004

ok, i'm trying another poem:

The Sun awakes with morning rays
That pierce right through to find its way
My eyelids don't feel heavy no more
And my arms and limbs no longer they sore

Still I'm snugged so warmly in bed
Hoping this moment will never fade
For this is how fortunate I feel
To know i'm sheltered and provided meals

Yet out of bed we often grumble
Of how life has been and how we've fumbled
But who truly do count their blessings
And be thankful for many beautiful things

No doubt flowers wilt and die
But have you ever wondered why
If life is devoid of any sadness
Won't it be tougher to find true happiness

---------------the end--------------

eh, erm, more optimistic right... HAHAHA...

I feel good *lalalalala* I feel soooo good *lalalalala*... (it's supposed to be this advertisement jingle... ha)

anyway, yah, i should be meeting normy, jan and charkai today, great! missed them lots... but for now, i'll first draw up a monthly planner till august... i seem to have many things but i can't remember them well that's why must plan them nicely... later everything clash then no nice le... oh and got many more new shops at kovan!!! YAY!!!!! some more got amore fitness, i'm definitely gonna sign up... hahaha go for kickboxing maybe... how cool... ok, it's different from muay thai la, but still, it's a form of exercise (which i truly need)... oh man, no time le... i still need to catch prince of tennis later! HAHAHAHAHA

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Saturday, June 05, 2004

erm, nightmare is over? ha... i dunno... "when the spoken truth ain't right, cover it up"... hahaha

ok, gimme 10mins, i'll compose another poem....

.... *thinking*.... *typing*.... *thinking*.... *backspacing*... *typing*... DONE:

When my heart goes silent
With the break of dawn
The tears remain prevalent
As I'm left forlorn

For what's it that I seek
To appease countless desires
The quest has made me weak
And drowned my flaming fire

Then I try to bow and pray
Wishing for the end to near
Pessimism has gotten its way
As future is what i fear

-----------the end------------

eee sux, i tink this poem not v nice... i brain malfunctioning le.. hahahaha cannot think le... some more it's really quite pessimistic... though that really ain't what i feeling now... come to think of it, maybe it's cos i dun feel the same way that's why the poem ain't outstanding. hahaha....

yah, went for dance today, den joined jie in town for some shopping, we both bought a pair of jeans and a triumph bra each. haha... oh and jie finally pierced her ears.. lol, she's gonna get the same sufferings as me man! ee, i'm sadistic... *bleah*.... oh and i saw pam in town today, i really think she's quite attractive... hiakz... good make up, good outfit... geez, why izzit that all my galfrens are attractive? saw shihui yday in town too, geez, she's hot (esp in that hot pants... super duper short... *winkz*)... so great to see her, and good that she has quit and is free too.. can go chill together soon... haaa...

hmm, it's been a long time since i last had tao hua yun... come to tink of it, wah really quite long le.. LOL... but it's still ok... i'm surviving fine... hahahahaha... I WILL SURVIVE... oh did i mention i intend to retire at 45 and travel arn the world and die at 50? hahaha that's my masterplan...

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Thursday, June 03, 2004

took half day leave today... still had cramps and there really ain't much to do in the office.. sianz.. now i'm home, shall go rest soon... tml's my last day... yipeez!

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Wednesday, June 02, 2004

"it's no longer possible"... oh cmon, i knew it all along, but i still gave a shot anyway... at least i didn't regret giving it a shot... i just needed some confirmation i guess... it really wasn't said on impulse... i've thought through it many days and nights... and honestly, i feel that i'm less wilful now, less demanding, less bothered with pride... erm, just like a new me le... but that doesn't help either, cos he ain't interested anymore. well, in public's eyes, i feel glad for him because he really doesn't deserve a bitch like me.... but of cos in my own eyes, i am upset la! ha... life's like that... watta do... i just wish with all my heart that he lives a happy and fulfilling life (even though i can't be part of it)... hehe, i've cried enough.. my tears have dried up... maybe it's time to stop... maybe...

hmm, how to move on? i need motivation... i need distractions again... like the past 4 mths... to keep myself bz from thinking abt him... i dowan any cockroach adventures, no cramps, no chinatown trips, no lonely bus rides, no playgrounds, etc etc... all of which constantly reminds me of him... he's a great, wonderful, super caring guy... erm, though i used to say he lacks creativity, but so what? he was loving and he was practical in loving... I shan't have asked for more...

yupz, i hope he gets a wonderful gf too, to make him know that he is really a wonderful guy as well (he seems to be pessimistic abt himself still)... and me leh, i'm a little scared of bgr already, i'm always doing silly stupid things... but i'm vent on growing up le... and one day, i hope to get a bf as great as he is... den i'll go truly treasure him and nv let history repeat itself!!!

yeah, people of the world... wish me luck... =)

ok, gtg le... cold sweat is breaking out profusely with my cramps going on... grrrrrr

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Tuesday, June 01, 2004

i wrote a poem on my hp while travelling home from work, here goes:

It all seemed like Yesterday
But Yesterday was long gone
The memories never fade away
Nor end up tattered and torn

All alone in the deafening silence
I pray for time to pass
For it had been my adolescence
That made up all these fuss

No second chance no turning back
As all was said and set
Just hope my life don't end in wrecks
After the last day we met

hmm, what can i say, to me, it's a damn meaningful poem i created for myself. but honestly, it's still easier said (in a poem) than done... I've been trying to move on but i found nothing much to look forward to. I know i can't turn back time to relive all the good moments and I seriously need more time to learn how to be happy thinking back on those good times instead of feeling sad that i've put an end to them myself. It takes time, yeah, it takes time to change.

ok, enough abt solemn stuffs... i shall talk about my new plan.. in fact, it's a half solemn plan too! damnz...

yah, i'm going vegetarian temporarily and sometime next week i'll go on an apple/tomatoe detox programme for 2 days. many reasons behind this... firstly and most imptly cos i gained weight after returning from hongkong and i kinda need some weight loss! secondly, i've sinned aplenty, maybe by not consuming animals i can redeem myself a little i hope? thirdly and lastly, many people would think i'm foolish, even i myself find it foolish, but after seeing him thinned down so much, i wanna thin down with him too. and even more foolishly, i hope he'll notice and get worried (although i don't know how's that ever possible), and understand that's how much i worry for him now... yah but no worries, i'll not harm my health... it's just detoxification, remember? haha... yah, cleansing of the body inside out... anyway, i believe in fate somehow... if i'm fated to die, i'll die no matter how hard i try to prevent it... but if i'm not fated to die yet, i'll not die no matter how many risks i subject myself to! ok, i'm still sane enough not to subject myself to too many risks.. no worries... =P

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